I want adults to be kids.

Well I was given a nudge this morning by my 4 1/2 year old on the way to school here is how it went.

Jacob: I wish adults were kids too mommy.
Crissy: Why is that?
Jacob: cause I want adults to be kids.
Crissy: Why do you want adults to be kids??
Jacob: I just want our family to be kids?
Crissy: Why do you want mommy and daddy to be kids?
Jacob: So you can play with me.
Crissy: Do I not play with you?
Jacob: no....well you played a game with me yesterday.
Crissy: but I don't play enough with you?
Jacob: no.
Crissy: Well I guess that is something that I am going to have to do more eh?
Jacob: yes mommy.

I do have to admit that it made me a little sad, But I am using it a gentle reminder. Our kids are great at letting us know what they need. I can find myself leaving the two to play with each other, and I also can find myself doing chores or cooking or doing errands all day long. So I told myself today.....STOP and be a kid. Laugh, act silly, roll on the floor and leave the chores. Because before I know it, it will be too late. They grow so fast. I need to enjoy them now there will always be dishes, and cleaning and errands. But my kids will only be small once.
So, thanks Jake for the reminder. Love ya buddy.

Food filled Friday.

Since I love cooking, I thought that I would share some of our family favorite recipes every Friday.
Today's choice is home made perogies. I just made some for tonight's dinner. yum, Yum.

Step one: Dough- Mix 4 1/2 cups of all purpose flour and 1 tsp of salt.
Step Two: In a separate bowl combine 1 cup of warm water, one cup of milk, 1/2 veg. oil.
Step Three: Mix wet into Dry mixture, and only stir until it all sticks together. DO NOT OVER STIR.
Step four: Let this dough sit aside for 15 mins.

Filling
Peel,and cook and mash 5-6 medium potatoes and set aside. Shred 1 cup of Chedder Cheese, 1/2 cup of Fried onions, and a 1/4 pound of bacon. Cooked and chopped finely. Add of this to the potato mixture. Set aside.
Step five: roll out your dough on to a well floured surface. using a large round cookie cutter or glass. cut perogies. Place a blob of filling on the edge and fold over and pinch around the edges. Place on a waxed covered cookie sheet and place in the frezzer until frozen then transfer into a zip loc bag.
This makes around 50 perogies. Great for a couple of meals. When ready to cook. Just boil a pot of salted water and cook perogies until they float. Enjoy with fried onion and bacon and sour cream.
Enjoy!

Three things I love about... my home.

1. It was our first home that we bought together and its brand new!
Thomas and I never thought in a million years that we would ever be able to afford a new home at this age. But we just happened to come across the bill board in the small town where Tom works and where he lived most of his childhood years. We were looking at house after house for a couple of months. And they were going to require a lot of tender loving care, and for more money then what this house was. So we bought it just by seeing the floor plans. There was no model to look at and to top it off we bought over a year in advance. But it worked out perfectly.

2.I love my kitchen
For those of you who know me. know that I love, love, love to cook and entertain. I have LOTS of kitchen appliances and gadgets etc. So when we moved here. Tom got an extra addition to the kitchen. my pantry. Which I am So very grateful for. All of my cupboards and large square pub style table is a maghoney color. Which I adore. And my counter space is divine. This is my favorite room in the house. I am so honest when I say this. I was in the kitchen baking pies, cookies etc. every day for the first few months. I was addicted to my new kitchen. It was the first room we painted and Thomas did a back splash too. He is SO a keeper!!!

3. The size of our basement. We have an almost 1500 sq ft. home. So you can imagine the size of the downstairs. We are in the process of finishing it and there is plenty of room. with lots of storage and a kids playroom. Can't wait to entertain in it.

Me want a benoo.

Jacob made me laugh so hard this night. Hence the shaking of the camera. He has always been able to communicate quite clearly what he wants, when he wants it. This has been interesting and challenging at times. He is so very independent and has been since he a wee one. Likes to do things on his own and gets frustrated when he can't complete it. He is a strong willed and determined and a stubborn little fellow. And does not back down. These things that were once a challenge. Are now turning into something that I admire about him. We butted heads a lot and still do, but I am learning to get to know who Jacob Thomas Hesch is, and who is he going to become. I am so looking forward to seeing what type of man he will be.
Enjoy the clip.

Convo's With Jake.

Jacob and I have a date morning every Saturday. We mostly go for breakfast. So I wanted to share some of our conversations. Getting in the head of a 4 year can be simply fantastic.

Our last Saturday morning as Jacob was taking a bit of sausage blurted out he wants to be a fighter when he grows up. Here it is.
Crissy: You want to be what when you grow up?
Jacob: I want to be a fighter. You know with gloves on.
Crissy: You want to be a boxer?
Jacob: sure.
Crissy: Well do you think that mommy would want to see you get hurt like that?
Jacob: Oh I won't get hurt. I will punch him and then run behind his back so he can't get me, I am super fast.
Crissy: Well if that's what you want to do maybe we can get you involved in some sort of self defense class. Would you like that?
Jacob: Yes, Yes, Yes.

Funny thing that I must share and what caught me totally off guard about this particular conversation with Jacob is that when he was in my womb We was always punching me and kicking hard and I told Thomas that he was going to be a fighter when he grows up. I also had some old gentlemen approach me in zerhs once when Jacob was 2 and he looked down at Jake and said he is going to be a fighter overseas. Now I don't want my baby to go to war.
But funny eh......Who knows.

19-20 Part one

this next chapter is very hard for me to explain. It was one of the hardest years of my life, but one of the most beneficial. I learned a lot about who I was. I learned a lot about who God was. I acted out a lot, yet it made me lean on God.

Bible college for me was a time where God stripped me naked and then started to clothe me piece by piece again. Man I don't even know where to begin.

My friend and I drove out West, we took the long route through the states. SO COOL! As we were leaving it was the perfect setting for a sappy chick flick. It was raining, and as we climbed in the van packed full of our stuff. Heather puts in a homemade tape given to her and I look out the window to see the one that had my entire heart for the last two years. As the tears streamed down the window and also my cheek, the song played in the background. I will remember you. What a perfect setting to leave it all behind.The boy, the parents, the job. and move on to the next chapter.

I told myself that I wanted to grow this year. I wanted to Give everything I had to God. I was not going to date, just focus on God. I was entering into a Missions course, and at the end of this course we would be going to China. How exciting. I could not wait.

Lots of stuff happened throughout this year. I am only going to focus on two major things that effected life forever.
First one. I had to write my testimony for one of my classes. I sat down and thought and thought, but nope nothing came to mind. I never experienced with drugs or alcohol. So I was never "saved " from anything. I tried at least four times to write the stupid thing, and came up with nothing. Then......One afternoon as I was walking by my professors office, and he yelled for me to come in. So I sit down, and he told me that he was awoken at 3 am the night before and I was on his mind. He felt like God was telling him That Crissy needs to forgive someone. What??? I told Bill that there was no one that I had to forgive. I was not fighting with anyone. I listed off all of my friends. He said he didn't know anything else, just that I needed to forgive someone, and I needed to pray about it. So I did just that. I began to pray that God would show me who this person is. And then BOOM one week later, by the way my paper was late, cause I had nothing to write about. I was awoken at 3 am and all of a sudden my mother popped into my head. But God I said aloud I am not mad at her. What do I need to forgive her about. And It was like this huge wave came over me. You need to forgive her for all of the abuse and the hurts that she put you through.

This seriously knocked me off my feet. If I was not already laying down, I probably would have fallen. For some reason it was like I heard this news for the first time. It was so odd. I don't think that I have thought about abuse in years. I was 20 now, and all of a sudden I started to bawl. God brought me back to a place of hurt and betrayal. and I was overwhelmed. What now God?? What do I do? How do I forgive her? This is your testimony Crissy, write about this. I heard. write about how I was there for you through all of the suffering. So the paper that was so hard to write flowed from the tip of the pen in less then an hour. I was in tears the entire time, but it was so amazing to write it all out. To get off my chest. and this was the very first step, was admitting that I was abused. It was around 5 am and I had to type it out, and I ran down to Bills office and slid it under the door. Phew....I remembered feeling a peace. until I was sitting in the class room a few hours later and Bill saying that we were going to stand up in front of the class and say our testimony out loud. kinda like a presentation. I almost filled my pants. I wanted to run back and grab my paper back and try and muster something else up. But it was too late. I wanted to die. I remember saying to God in my head. "Your kidding me" I can't tell anyone. I never once uttered a word about my past. NEVER! I was so terrified. And I also had no time to prep. It was that afternoon, that we were going to do it. I was instantly sick. My tummy was in knots. But I did it. I got up and in front of 50 people read it aloud. I was in tears and to my dismay half my class was too. After I was done reading it. I looked up and instead of seeing people who were going to judge me were people that hugged and embraced me. I felt loved and I felt at peace. And I felt like I was ready to let go of it all.

Now this next part is amazing. No one can tel me that there is no God. NO ONE! cause he was there, and he made it all happen. Stay tuned.